Moon shadows are the most terrifying sort they double sometimes triple in front of you crossing paths I run to outrun the stolid phantoms they float on ahead and laugh those sanguine fish-less fishermen in carny waltz home own early drunken hours they saunter tilt sway collide and soon you come to admit this whole bitter time you are the one chasing your very own shadows so come morning before bright I lace up again and though I pray I strain harder— the spirits win they `remain just racing faster into what is trapped what is already passed something in this black cycle isn’t whole I run to fill holes to make right what went wrong and rescue all it was that brought me here to this enervating loop de loop de loop I wake up for another round I get up this morning I clear my stale throat this morning there is a new moon no moon no shady troupe about I never do this but this time I change my old route just to test the dark ghosts who I can hear the adumbration of though I can’t conceive ahead so I look back and so far back those shadows can’t keep pace

Me, alone is always contrary. Please
leave me alone.
Please give me rest. But please
please, please, don’t
banish me-
all
the way
to myself.
That din unending in rabid vigil, it
loops and stirs and
loops
fermenting infection
cementing mistaken,
askew, fantastically amiss
tales.
Then tortured by a torrid famine from
a self infrangible and firm
I gasp for my name.
Denizens of the night, unite!
The implacable coterie of
round the clock wakers,
who shake the dark hours
with mind bending
tunnels. Clandestine wanderers
of witching hours—
congregate to the place
where sundials expire
and behold the throng
of your kind.
Nourish inside all the
black nodes and be relieved
and worship free,
free from speaking only
that which passes in the
light. Know the diurnal life
is only half.
While those eyes, eyes
resisting rest, expand
the given hours and sit
upon the whole— the
compound truth,
be it full of sores, is fuller still—
Of breath and death,
above and below,
the effusive day with
our elucidative night.
It came to pass
it must always be coming to pass every
minute you are inhaling you must bring
much good to pass more more
more you must bring your more to pass
to be good
there is no more— yet your
limbs are in perfunctory stasis
while your heart is in starvation
your hollow more takes away more
than it contributes and
the thing in its path cannot be filled
by you or through you because
your empty inner knows only paucity
not peace
and you come inside and find
your trough is bare and
sometimes filled with glossy tacky
wounds open and unmoored still
canker the pus fermenting
so the feeble air you
ooze is not more—
just your ill exhale
the only real more to give
to the passer the one who sits by you
is not a performance—it is bellowing
below—an inherent fulgid flame
requiring quiet still corridors so it remains
lit and unswayed and then it thaws you
and bestows more— your calm to pass.
Moon shadows are the most
terrifying sort
they double
sometimes triple in front of you
crossing paths
I run to outrun the
stolid phantoms they
float on ahead
and laugh
those sanguine fish-less fishermen
in carny waltz home
own early drunken
hours they saunter tilt
sway collide
and soon
you come to admit
this whole bitter time
you are the one chasing
your very own shadows
so come morning before
bright I lace up again and
though I pray
I strain harder—
the spirits win they
`remain
just racing faster into
what is trapped what
is already passed something
in this black cycle isn’t whole
I run to fill holes to
make right what went
wrong and rescue
all it was
that brought me here to
this enervating loop de
loop
de loop
I wake up for another round
I get up
this morning I clear my
stale throat
this morning there is a new moon
no moon
no shady troupe about
I never do this but
this time I change
my old route
just to test the dark ghosts who
I can hear the
adumbration of though
I can’t conceive ahead
so I look back
and so far back
those
shadows can’t
keep
pace

ALL THE WAY TO MYSELF

THE INSOMNIAC SHOUT

CALM TO PASS

OLD MOON ROUTE